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Michelle. 20. bay area bby.
cancer survivor.
Czech/Mex
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Why can’t I just not care

One year later and my asshole ex still denies cheating on me
His friend. His friend. Not him. His friend finally came and told me the truth like 2 weeks ago. He cheated on me while I was STILL IN TREATMENT FOR CANCER
“Too busy with work” to visit me in the hospital but not too busy to fuck his whore employee.
Oh and he still can’t even respect me enough so apologize hm or ADMITT it , even after his friend told me so there’s not point in denying it.
He also told me be basically doesn’t/didn’t care if I die
And btw after we broke up he started dating her but neglected to mention that to me until last month, even though I was still having naked sleepovers with him several months after our break up and he was still telling me he loved me for a long time.
It’s been a year since we broke up. And I’m still not over it. Because he refuses to give me closure, because he lead me on, because everything he says is a lie, because even now he finds ways to keep me in his life but still treat me like a total asshole, and of course because I HAD FUCKING CANCER I was fighting for my life every day, and he couldn’t even find the time to be there and hold my hand. I wasn’t important enough to him. What was important to him was lying to me going behind my back fucking some other slut and telling everybody how terrible I was to him and how he didn’t want to be with me. Telling everybody besides me.
He tells me he NEVER loved me, and even after that, after everything he’s done I can’t help but know there’s a part of me that loves him.

…but a bigger part of me knows he’s an assbag and I didn’t deserve to be treated like this so if you want his phone number just ask me because I encourage anybody calling him and harassing him

someone should let me use their HBO GO account…..plz 

“I want to text you. Just to remind you that I’m still here. But then I remember that you know I’m here. You just don’t care.”

Midnight thoughts (I won’t do this again)